A few weeks ago, I stepped out onto a limb and shared my Trying To Conceive (TTC) story with you all. I was overwhelmed by the outpouring of love from everyone! The words of wisdom, the stories of hope, and the acknowledgement of our emotional struggle was amazing. Thank you all for loving my family, and continuing to pray for the growth of our family!
Since so many people seemed to want to support us in our journey, I decided to continue to post some TTC updates for you all. Hopefully I will soon be able to transition from TTC posts to “baby on the way” posts, but we aren’t there yet.
In the last post, I mentioned that we had wonderful results from the HSG procedure and our doctor wanted us to try naturally for a couple of months. Well, as you can probably already tell, naturally just isn’t working in our situation. The emotions of the last three months have been a roller coaster to say the least – up up up to the “is this it?”, “is that twinge in my side a sign?”, and googling everything from “gas” to “acne” to “excessive crying” as signs of pregnancy….then down, down, down when we would take the pregnancy test and get a negative result. To explain those feelings of hopelessness, loss of control, and heartbreak would be impossible to put into words on a blog…
So last week I made a phone call to schedule the next step – an Intrauterine Insemination (IUI) procedure.
** Doctor Talk ** Intrauterine insemination (IUI) is a fertility treatment that involves placing sperm inside a woman’s uterus to facilitate fertilization. The goal of IUI is to increase the number of sperm that reach the fallopian tubes and subsequently increase the chance of fertilization. ** End Doctor Talk **
The phone call was a shocker to me….after almost 20 years of seeing the same gynecologist, after crying with her, hugging her, going through all the previous testing with her, I was told on the phone that she is no longer at the practice! WHAT?! This is not what was supposed to happen!! When the rubber hits the road, she is supposed to be there with me! I was devastated to hear the news, but then received this letter in the mail the next day:
My incredible doctor, who has a heart of gold, did exactly as I suspected. She took a position that will give her career a wonderful path. I am not mad, not hurt, just a little sad.
The short phone call wasn’t all sad though. I was automatically placed with the other female physician in the office because I was in the process of fertility treatments – this means I am not out seeking a “new patient” appointment with other doctors, which in turn means we aren’t postponing the process! Also – the best news of all – the $7000 estimate we have been saving for….yeah, nope….we are only looking at an approximate $700 per treatment fee! Yippee! This means that this is not going to be a “one shot” deal for us. Don’t get me wrong, $700 is not pocket change for these two teachers, but it is a more reasonable number that will give us at least a couple of opportunities to grow our family if the first one doesn’t work out.
So we have a consultation appointment scheduled for the first week in April to move forward with the IUI procedure. Yeah, we are still holding out hope for a natural positive pregnancy test before the actual procedure, but we have placed the process in God’s hands. All we ask from our dearest friends is to pray for continued peace in our hearts, pray for our little miracle that isn’t ready to join us on earth quite yet, and pray that whatever our path holds for us we will continue to be faithful to God about the process and be good examples for others with similar struggles.
We will keep you updated – promise…until then we will trust it all to God!
**The song below gets me through every day – when I think I can’t take another day – when I think I want to take it back from God – when I think our miracle will never happen….Enjoy…